Another first for Cutie this week: painting.
How far apart are Cutie and the new baby? 13 monthsHow big is new baby? 6 lbs 9 oz (I think)Are you prepared? Umm…we have clothes and a bed and diapers (and lots of LOVE). We are as prepared as we can be for a surprise newborn. We are excited and nervous. Mostly I just can’t wait to hold a little tiny guy and keep him all to myself. Kristi always makes me give hers back.Are you crazy? Quite possibly.
I’ll post pictures of the little guy as soon as I can. No promises as to how quickly that will be. I may be in need of suggestions for what to call him on the blog. Be thinking.
Here is some random cuteness from the past couple of days.
You know the food is good when he’s got it up to his eyebrows.
Playing in the snow.
Poor Cutie had to just watch from the back door while Ellie played.
I just had one of those moments that makes you realize what life is all about.
It makes all the nose wiping, diaper changing, breaking up fights, late nights, shushing, cooking, cleaning (and cleaning and cleaning), weaning, rocking, feeding, teeth brushing, face washing and time-outs worth it. Not to mention the waiting, wondering, tears and prayers.
Ellie was in the tub and I was putting Cutie to bed. I was rocking my clean smelling, chubby, pajama-wearing, full-tummy, tired little guy in his dark bedroom. I was singing him some songs and he leaned in to snuggle (this is new within the past couple of weeks. He always wants to snuggle a bit before he sleeps, when he first came that was not the case). I could hear Ellie singing in her bathtub. Something about how she is Super Girl. After a song or two, Cutie’s breathing slowed and he started to give me pats and rub my shoulder.
As I sat there in the quiet I had a breakthrough. I realized that no matter what happens to our little family in the future, wherever this little Cutie ends up, I am so grateful to have had him with us. To see the changes he’s gone through and the happy and healthy boy he is, to think of the joy he’s brought to our family–even if only for a short time–was enough for that moment. It was the perfect mommy moment and I am so glad I was there for it. Really there. I wasn’t thinking about what to do next, I wasn’t in a hurry. I was able to sit and smell the sweet baby in my arms and think of how I’ll never be the same because he’s a part of my life.
Plus my little Super Girl was still singing away in the bathtub. That’s one of my favorite things ever.
Things got a little too quiet this morning, so I went to find Cutie. He was in the living room, happily playing away with his new little cars. That boy loves anything he can push across the floor!
We’re grateful to have you with us, little Cutie!
By the way, Cutie was weighed yesterday and he’s actually lost weight while he’s been here. You wouldn’t know it to look at him. He doesn’t necessarily look as though he’s wasting away; and I’ve noticed no difference when I pick him up. But aparently he’s getting more svelt by the day. Just tell that to his thighs!
These pictures are from earlier this week. We drive past a huge area of wild sunflowers every time we leave our neighborhood. After enjoying them from afar for the past few weeks, we decided to stop and pick some to take home. Here is Ellie with the sunflowers:
Wow! We ask for prayers and see results overnight! We got word today that we have been selected as Cutie’s foster-only family! This means that we get to take care of him long term while the mess with his family is sorted out, but this is different than fostering with the intent to adopt or “Legal Risk”. We are hoping to get to that status, but even once we are there that does not mean he’ll be with us forever. While the road ahead is still very long and difficult, we’ve made a step in the right direction.
Thank you for your prayers and keep ’em coming!
Friends and Family,
We have recently been faced with a very tough choice. It is possible that our little Cutie could become ours forever. We have fallen head-over-heels in love with this kid, so given the choice we’d gladly adopt him. Here comes the tough part: his situation is a mess. Obviously I can’t go into any details, but we could be facing a long and emotional roller coaster. He may need to leave us for a while and come back, or he may leave for good, or he may be with us forever. Not only that, but he has a younger sibling on the way (due in November). Because Cutie has been taken from that home, this newborn baby will also be taken. And because we have Cutie, the baby will most likely come to us as well. So not only are we faced with an emotional mess and lots of waiting and wondering about Cutie, we also may have TWO cuties 13 months apart. (I told you it’s a mess!)
We need the love and support and prayers of our family and friends!
We will let you know more when we do, but as for now it’s a waiting and praying game.
On a lighter note, here are some pictures of our cuties:
Ellie discovered my swimming gear today:
I accidentally left my camera at my parents’ house last weekend. I’ve never realized how many pictures I take until now. I won’t have it back until next week, but I was able to borrow a camera so I could update ya’ll on a few things.
On Tuesday afternoon a bundle of joy was delivered to our doorstep. We’ve got a darling little 10 month old boy staying with us for a while. Because of the kind of foster care we do and for the babies’ safety, and ours, we’ve decided not to post their names on the blog. I totally understand if that drives you nuts, it would for me! Feel free to email me if you feel you are loosing your sanity over the lack of names for our Cuties. (Also, for those of you who don’t know, we are not permitted to talk about anything relating to their backgrounds or why they are with us.) But we CAN tell you all about how cute they are.
And this guy is CUTE. He’s also huge. It is nearly impossible for me to hold him, or be in the same room with him for that matter, without kissing those cheeks. Repeatedly. Man, he’s cute. Cutie and Ellie get along really well. They have had a blast crawling all over the house together. He makes kissy noises to get Ellie’s attention (I wonder if that has anything to do with the several thousand kisses he gets from me every day…) which cracks her up every time. We really enjoy having him in our house.
Ellie’s Grandma Great (Rosalie) recently had a birthday. I asked Ellie what she wanted to do to tell Grandma happy birthday, and she replied that we simply must have a tea party. So we invited Grandma and Grandpa Great over for a lovely Tea Party complete with fancy hats, dresses, dainty sandwiches and a little tea set.
The Greats even brought a hostess gift for Ellie, which she was delighted with. A darling little book and a puzzle of Van Gogh’s Sunflowers. She took it apart and put it back together several times that afternoon.
Now that Ellie and Cutie are in bed, it’s time for me to go back to my latest addiction: the Olympics. I LOVE the Olympics! As we’re watching, Jason frequently looks over at me to make sure I don’t need a tissue. For some reason, watch Olympic feats makes me weepy. I’m pretty weepy anyway, but it is unusual for me to cry at commercials. But those VISA athlete commercials get me every time.